Monthly Archives: May 2013

Young & Beautiful


Last week, Brendon and I had the chance to catch “The Great Gatsby” at the movie theater after I got off work. (We were both shocked that it’s $10.25 a piece to see a movie now.) It had been a book that we had both read in high school and knowing it was a love story, it could not be that bad if it was not that great of a movie. Overall, I enjoyed it though the beginning was slow. I love the signature song: Young and Beautiful by Lana Del Rey. I like the quality of her voice. One current trend of music has been women with unique voice qualities like Lana Del Rey, Florence Welch from Florence and the Machine, and Adele. The chorus is really touching:

Will you still love me when I’m no longer young and beautiful? 

Will you still love me when I have nothing but an aching soul?

I know you will. I know you will. I know that you will.

Will you still love me when I’m no longer beautiful?

During the movie, I thought of Brendon when it played. We are meant for each other even when we are no longer young and beautiful. Our hearts will forever be entwined in each other.

This week I had a minor surgery. The doctor has made me take off work. It has given Brendon and I more time to see each other. He has been over every single day after work. That has been nice. He even surprised me with a box full of gifts to help me recover from my surgery. He is just so sweet.

Right now we are both looking for different jobs. The current company we work for is on the verge of collapse if not turned around from the direction they are headed in. I am looking into possibly doing retail for Yankee Candle Company. I have never done retail before but think I would enjoy it. Just trying to take the next step in my life.

God Bless,


(Photo of Brandon Brown and Colby Melvin Courtesy of Facebook)




Easter went better than either of us could have expected. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would have a husband in my parent’s house sitting down and eating a meal. My parents genuinely liked Brendon and Brendon liked them. Brendon is a handy man; loves to fix things. He was able to connect in a way with my dad that I never could. We had dinner and slipped away into the basement where we watched The Guardians, that my siblings had rented, wrapped up together in a blanket. A sweet happy time together. My grandparents did not ask anything about us being together. I do not know if my mom has talked about it with my grandma but I have never said anything about my sexuality to them. My parents had always not wanted me to talk about it. Now we are in a different phase than before. Brendon’s family did invite him to have dinner with them last minute. After finishing the movie, dessert, and going for a walk; he went over to spend time with his family.

My mom later commented that she loves Brendon and I and cannot help being a mom to him though she does not believe that our relationship is right. I can respect that. I am glad that she sees that we are together and I did not have to point it out.

(Photo Courtesy of Pablo Needs Amused via Tumblr)